Hello!
Today is my fisrt day of my internet diary. Actually, it is a litlle weird feeling
when your dairy could be read by anyone. When i was a child i hid my dairy
under my pillow. But who knows, maybe my mommy knows everything about my babyish
dreams from my dairy.
Well i grew up, and now i want to share my thoughts, feelings and dreams with you
guys. I think you would find something useful from my diary. Because i guess it is always interesting what is there in a woman's head...
I am going to share my inner dreams and naughty things, childish
secrets and dirty thoughts...
Because it is my first internet dairy i am going to tell you about my first sex.
I wanted to start from my fisrt kiss, but after long recollection who was my
fisrt guy whom i kissed with, i have decided not to devote attention to
my fisrt kiss..
I need to say that i've always been the girl who had very naughty thoughts about
how i would have sex with a guy. I have been very quiet and watched people
a lot. Looking at guys fingers when they were writing with a pen at school i
imagined how they were making me feel good..;).. Is it normal if it was in early age?
Well...if loosing a virginity with a married guy is ok, so i guess it was normal. Actually, my friends think that it is not good. But i think it is not good when you had sex more than once
with him... Awww!!! I am really bad then... But you know, it is not a secret that a man is more unfaithful than a women. You can love one woman but your small secret (or big secret) between your legs needs more love.
Well..i was really a silly litlle virgin when an adult handsome man payed attention at me like i was a real princess... We met on a resort when we both had holiday with different companies.
When i saw him for the first time i thought:"Wow, i could be the happiest girl in the world if he would be my first guy". All girls were turning round when he was going beside them...
It is so funny to reminisce now,It was really unreal. I saw the ring but couldnt help it. By the way, it was only1.5 years ago. He just tempted me walking around...
I actually dont know what he could find in me. I guess it was unusual for him that i was still a
virgin. Or i tempted him with my innocent body and with my modest look..
He first said hello to me. And in a couple of hours we were sitting on the beach and he was laughing at my smart jokes..=) And i was celebrating my litlle victory inside my mind that he was with me at that moment, and my friends were envious...=) I was so scared first time, i thought there would be blood and pain, but it was amazing.He saw that i was like a frighten bird and trembled under him. He just whispered to me me: "Breath deeper now". And gently but insistently slide his cock in my wet tight but yet virgin pussy. He didnt hurt me. It was a litlle painful but i liked a little pain. It made me more horny.With every minute i was feeling how my pleasure was growing up. I was feeling how to move with him. And felt more unwind. And it was my first orgasm with a guy when he was eating my pussy.Well...should i tell that it was amazing?

At that time i felt my first satisfaction from sex.
When he fell asleep i just put my clothes on and left him quiet and thankfully for a great
time. I wanted him to be my first, i didnt want more from him. My dream came true.

Hiya!
I've just finished taking firts pictures.
WhooHooo!!! I am so excited! I had so much fun!
But i was a litlle bit nervous because i have never did pictures like
that defore.
Well i have been virgin before with that.:)
Now i am totally a woman! =) Actually if you saw pictures that
I've made i dont think you agree with me that i am women because I look like kid there.
Sometimes i think i am a big kid...with big tits..:)
Anyway, first set we made was ugly! I was sad, because
i thought i looked like an ugly fat animal.. And the lighting
was terrible, very dark. I almost was ready to take all
my clothes and go home in dissapointed.
By the way, i wanted to say about place where I have made the
pictures. It was a great hotel of our city. If you are going
to my city you should book a room in this one.;) Because there is
everything that will make you feel like at home, everything is made
for foreign people there. There are even english words
in a bathroom that shows that this stuff is a shampoo or soap so you couldnt
use it in wrong way..:)))))
Well, stop about promoting..:)
Where were we?
A Photographer has changed the lighting, And we started again. Well, i realized
that i have been very nervous before and stretched too much.
I just needed to relax a litlle bit.
I even thought that i was not so ugly... :)

Then somebody was peeping at me with recording camera how i was changing my clothes for next set.
It was a litlle weird feeling like when somebody looking at
you in window with binoculars... But this is exciting you know..;)
Yes, i am a dirty old women.=))) Or a young lady with dirty thoughts...
I dont know..I have entangled already. =)
I have made an excursion in our place for camera. It was funny. But camera
was sucks so i think you will never see how i was peeing..:P
When I become more rich and I will buy a cool camera maybe i will
show you how i do that. :) But it will be only for perverts..
Are you pervert? No, you are not.. Pity, i like when perevrts are
watching me..
It is more exciting because you can learn more about people
in our world who are not women... :) I mean to know more about what
guys are dreaming of. And every time getting to know one more thing about
you guys. You know your thoughts and habits are very different from
women thoughts. It is like another world. Well i love to travel, i love
to see another wordls... And i am going to be very patient on my
way to guy's world. I dont know why i want to know everything about
your thoughts... Maybe it's just an easy way to conquer your heart.
But when your heart is mine i will lose interest to you.
So why then i need to know more about you? Oh my god, it is very
difficult for my understanding... I will think about it later...
Shut up, Katie, you talk too much..;)
Where were we again?:) I fell down
from the coach.:) It was funny... I was laughing till tears. haha
My favorite pictures are pictures with a towel. mmm

Was feeling a litlle bit horny. Long time without sex.=)
I need to say it was first set i was feeling horny.. Next
sets i was feeling more horny.lol
Escpecially, in a red dress and in a bathroom...................mmmmmmmm
My eyes are closing... A litlle bit tired.
Sweet dreams. Kisses!

Hello guys!
How is everything?
I was at school today. Sometimes it is so boring. Some teachers
are so evil. They think that we have only school in our life but
nothing more.
In one month i have exams...ewww.. When i have exams i cant even
breath.
We have proverb among students: " Students have fun from one session till
another one". But teachers always have fun with us. On session they
just look at us like 'grrr, had fun before, now get ready to be in a hell!' It is not
fair.=(
What do you think about that?
I need to do my homework.. It is a very enthralling work...
Well, i am going to have fun with exercise books..
See you tomorrow!
Kisses!

One more day in school is over.
I had a case when a teacher had offered me a grade if i went go out
with him. He said: "You are so beautiful you should use your beauty a
right way"
He was looking at me like a cat at her victim with hungry eyes. I thought for
one more minute and got them he would eat me with all my food i ate in the morning... I
said:"Wow, what a great idea! I wanted to f___k him a dirty old teacher so much!!!!! Do you think i was listening to your lectures when you were teaching?? No, you are wrong! I was
imagining how you would bend over me hard, lift up my skirt and use me making me moan right on the desk!"...
And i was spreading my legs in front of him right on the desk...
He said in a shock: " Girl, you need to visit a doctor .."..and dead.
Well, i am a naughty student thinking about sex, but not about
studies...

I am sorry, my Maths Teacher.. I will never forget you..
Do you like my sad story? I like it too.. But i wish. He didnt die.=(
Actually i didnt spread my legs, and i didnt say dirty words to him...
I just gave him money for grade. I hope i will never see him again...
Ewww!
What do you think about it? Do you think it is right to take body or money
when you teach poor students. I think it is terrible.=(
Well, despite it i like to study and prove teachers that i know
everything what they teach me. While i am young i will have fun with friends at
night and go to school during in day time. Right?
And one more thing, if i wouldnt be a student i couldnt go to America
for summer.
The visa that i got in last year was allowed only for students. I
didnt belive that i could get the visa. But after talking with a consul i was packing my
suitcase.
I was so excited!
I had so much fun there last summer.
Well, time for work.
See ya!

I just was thinking about my travelling to America. I need to say I always remember about it.
It is just always in my mind. I think I grew up after visiting this country.
Look at the same things with a different eye. Well, I think when you travel you always grow up.
And you must be very happy if you have a chance to travel. And especially when you travel at a young age. When I was packing my suitcases I couldn’t believe that in a couple of days I would see that country which I had had a chance to see only on TV. Bye-bye my home! Bye-bye my sleepy teddy...
I am going to Americaa!!!!! WhooHOOOO!!!!=)))
Last way to airport, mommy's last tears... Words: "Don’t cry mommy, your baby has become an adult woman, it is only 4 months there, I will be back, I promise!" I have no idea of how my mommy could set me loose from under her wing... It is really unbelievable! First customs, first foreign people, the woman's words through the microphone: "Plane 319 departures in 5 minutes."... I was soooo excited! Bye-bye Russia!!!!!! First 6 hours from Russia to Prague. A stop in Prague. Please don’t be cross with me but the food that I had on the plane was terrible. My poor stomach was burping all the time.=) And later in America I was eating almost only Russian food, because I don’t like McDonalds and all that stuff...

I had the stop in Prague for 4 long hours. I was very tired, no shower, no mommy's food..=( So many beautiful European people!!!! The following 9 hours were much more difficult than the last flight.
But what I see?! Does it look like New York from the porthole??!!! Nooo...
YES! IT IS NEW YORK CITY!

JFK Airport ... The strange man who picked us (me and my friend) to the hostel. It was very expensive. He just did his job with silly guys who see America for the first time.. I need to say my English was soooo terrible. Well, my English is still not so good, but I could say only 'hi! how are you?'...now I can say "my English is not so good" =).. Fisrt night in the hostel. First troubles with understanding 'what the hell are they talking about!?'..=)) We spent our first night in NYC, and early in the morning (because of the difference in time, I couldn’t sleep) I was going to Greyhound (I have no idea how it is spelled, but it is a bus terminal in NYC).. And then I was on the way to Atlantic City.....
I was in a cultural shock for the first 2 weeks or something. Actually, whole America is a little bit older than my city in Russia. But it is very-very-very different from Russia. Everything is different.
Everybody on the streets was looking at us as if we were monkeys. And was saying: Welcome to America!
What about guys?... They are crazy !!!!! You guys are crazy! I had never seen so many attention from guys like in America! =) There are many funny and sad stories. Anyway, everything was teaching me life. I was leaving America with tears in my eyes. I was very sad. Last night with the American guy.. Last kiss and a try to remember his face forever, good bye, make sure you e-mail me when you are in Russia, I will be waiting for you to come back, have a save flight...

Four greatest months in my life have gone. Time for coming back to mommy coz I promised to.
Cheer up, Julia! Don’t make your mommy sad… Well, I was crying the whole flight to Russia...
Trying to make my eyes happy, hi, mommy, missed me?=)

Do you think I am sick if i see cocks around me? =)

Or do i just need sex so much?
Well, i think after being with a guy who has a big cock it is not easy to find a good one. And who said the size doesn’t matter?.. Actually i love oral sex... But I didn’t think that a cock can make me feel soooo terrific.. I know i know, not only a cock can make one feel terrific but i love to look into eyes, and if you feel something when you are looking into eyes it will make you feel amazing. I don’t know why, but eyes show what you have inside. When you look into eyes you feel that you both are a whole in this world. And then the size doesn’t matter... =) Am i talking too hard to understand? Or do you know what i am talking about? Anyway, my girlfriends told me something like that about big cocks: "It is terrible! He just put his huge cock inside and i was feeling as if he was going to see his cock outside my mouth..."...he could lick his cock, it would be good for him.;-))) Or something like that: "It was sooo painful. He just was tearing me inside and the next day i felt pain inside. That sucked!"… Well, girls, i think if a guy knows how to use this natural gift in the right way it couldn’t be painful for a girl. You should be very careful and ask if it is bad or not.

So guys, the size does matter, but it doesn’t matter if you feel attraction to each other. Anyway, you will make oral sex... It would be easier for a girl to suck it..;-) To put your cock deep inside her mouth with its full size.=) Well, she has an asshole as well..;-)

Time for work.
XOXO

Hello!
What a crazy week! Had to make too much homework coz the exams are coming soon.
Sooo tired. You even can’t imagine how tired i am. I need massage all over my body… Well, to start with, i would like just a kiss and a hug. And to fall asleep on your shoulder. And listen to your snoring in my sleep. ;-) Mmmm, have to go to bed. Sweet dreams! (about me;-)))
See ya!

Hello!
Oh wow... I have just woken up. Now i can say: " I wanna try sex with a girl!!!!" I thought about it a long time ago but now i am sure i want it. If my alarm clock hadn’t rung she would have cummed on my face.. Grrr... Hate the alarm clock!=(
I saw me and her in a light room. She has just finished taking the shower. I was waiting for her sitting on the bed. She was naked when i saw her for the first time. And my eyes were sliding on her naked curves. Actually we were friends in my dream before but now she asked me why i am staring at her like that.. And was smiling at me with a spark in her eyes. I said that i had wanted to see her naked for a long time. And i liked what i saw and i had imagined her naked and now my dream had come true. She asked me if i would like to see more. She said i would love it. I said of course i wanted to. And before my eyes there appeared a huge long hairy hard cock instead of her pussy! Oh my god! No way! I am just kidding..=) She just came nearer to me and kissed me very softly. I was wearing a little tight dress, under the dress there were small red panties like in my pictures.

Her hands were sliding under the dress and making my nipples hard. Then she started kissing my neck and ears. She knew that i love being kissed over there. I am not sure if i have cummed in my sleep but i remember how her pussy looks like.. Wet, pink and tight. And i see her clit against my tongue..mmm.. I think i still feel her juices on my lips.. I feel like i am so hungry and want to eat everything what she has got. Just wanted to see her moaning, closing her eyes, breathing fast, getting more and more wet right here on my face...

Just wanted to make her feel like i would like to feel. I think if you know where you should fondle yourself it is easy to guess where she wants to feel your lips and tongue. A girl understands another girl much better then a guy does. Well, but nothing can supersede the cock...;) Even a big-big dildo. I prefer a real cock exploding with precum. A dildo can’t do that.=( Well, i should try threesome...=) I think i need to use my fingers right now...;-) You know the best gift for your boyfriend if he is far away from you and you are not going to see him for a long time is recording a home video how you are playing with a girl in your bed… Hehe. Great idea, don’t you think so?;-) Who wanna be the operator?! =) Be careful, i don’t want the camera shake. :P

I have to run to school. But it is difficult for me to run right now coz my pussy is wet.lol

I will do my best!
See ya! Muah!

Hi!
Sunday.... I love Sundays but i hate them as well. Coz before Sunday it was Saturday(!) but the day after Sunday is Monday... I met with my friends today. We played bowling. And my right hand is very heavy now. And I want to take any ball in my hand and to dash. BooBoo! I am a looser.... I didn’t win. But I was trying...really..=( Well, I even didn’t brake a single nail. That’s good. I need to take a shower and go to bed... School tomorrow. Sorry for a small message... Promise to manage a big one tomorrow.=) KIIIIIIIISSSSSS YA!
Nite!

Hello!
How are you?
I took some pictures and videos in the gym. I liked the idea of how a little girl looks like in the gym where strong and sweaty men make their bodies perfect (as they think)..:) I just have raped so many trainers there...Where you make your hands and legs bigger and stronger. Well, and your ass too. I like round asses… My first sight at a guy is actually at his ass.. It should be like two nuts. Yes, when i face him for the first time i say to him: "Could you please turn around so i could see your nice ass?"=) Or just run around him... No, i am serious! I always do like that when i don’t know how to say him bye, i don’t wanna fuck with you..;-) He thinks that i am a sick girl, crazy or something like that. And he’s gone... =) Anyway, i was taking pictures and training at the same time. I like the exercise when you set your legs wide apart and then you should put them together. Something between your legs is stretching while you are doing that. Then you just can’t join your legs together as if you were fucking all day...

I was very very shy on this pictures... My shirt just was raising
all the time and i needed to cover my tits
again and again.. It was my favorite old green shirt and i cut off it
too short.. Well, my tits in this one look
good i think..;-)

I just was very grimy.=) There was grease on the trainer and i of course,got in over there... My legs was all grimy..grrr..

I liked to take pictures in sport clothes but next set was in underwear and you know what?
My mood fell down immediately. If you didnt see it so i am perfect actress.=)
I just didnt like my underwear.. That was all incommodious. See, i even was smiling.;-)

Here are pictures in blue underwear. Well, i like them. Maybe because it was last set
in underwear. I was kissing with myself... Her lips are taste like candy..;-)))

Well, hope you will like these pictures.
Kisses!

When I was a little little girl (I am still a little girl) I always made drawings of this guy... I don’t know why. Just when I had a pen and didn’t have any thoughts in my mind my hand moved and made this strange guy. No, maybe there are pictures
like that on the Internet, but it is only from my mind... I have never seen this guy anywhere. He is actually not so ugly if you look into his eyes... Look into them... So deep and the glance is so smart... Don’t you know why he has a red area around the eyes? I guess he just wants to poo so much... Seems, like some clever words are coming out from his mouth with white teeth... And they are just going to charm you forever... They are something like that: "I am a poor alien, I live in the space, nobody wants to let me live with them on any planet...Coz I am so ugly. And I even can’t to defecate in the space... My shit will fly all over here and then it will fill all the space." Eww! Anyway, this guy is from my childhood. And nobody is allowed to hurt him! Hey, you! I have a toilet over here, go down to my world! See my hands? Yes, over there! Poor green moron... I already love you!!! If nobody marries me after this bullshit you will be my husband and we will have
many little green morons like you and me... =)))))))))

Can you tell me? Have you ever been so lonely that you felt helplessness and weakness? You feel like you are totally alone, nobody can understand you. It
seems you have everything. You have so much attention, many friends, you have a family, but you don’t have something very important, something that makes you feel happy and indispensable… You know you always smile, but under that smile you hide a horrific loneliness. You can’t tell anybody about that, coz they will not understand you, they will say: '"You have got everything that a girl can have. It is just impossible for a girl like you to be lonely"... I feel it so deep, it just scares me...emptiness inside, feebleness... In these moments you reminisce the time when you felt very happy, and you were thinking that it would never finish. You have it only in our memory... And you just want to hold the hand that made you feel so happy... Just hold the hand in your hand and this only thing is enough for being really indispensable for this world… Feel warm in your hand and know that you are not alone... Am I too boring? I am sorry, just needed to tell it. Today I feel like this, tomorrow I feel crazy, the day after tomorrow I feel amorousness... People are strange creatures. Especially, women are...

Hey, guys!
You know what? If you don’t see me in January it will mean the teachers killed me during the examinations. Or I got dead when studying subjects... Or doctors sent me to the loony bin forever.... I have 12 exams this year! And every teacher has strange ideas. One wants me to know what parts the fridge consists of... Another wants me to know what the bases of the financial system are... The third one wants me to know the methods of the Graeco-Roman wrestling... It is just tearing me apart!!!! Soon in my room there will be a mess with my left boob in one corner and my right one in another corner. My eyes will hang down from the chandelier... My brain will just drip from the desk where I do my homework... Do you think I will be a star if I write horror books?=) The title: "The best writer 2006, the Fool. Katie the Fool"....Bond. James Bond.=) What the hell I am talking nonsense... See, time to visit the loony bin…oops...I mean time for homework... Lick you! Oh, I mean - Kiss you!

See ya

Hi! How are you?
I am still alive... School hasn’t killed me yet..=)
And of course, I have one more trouble. Guess what, when a girl feels her tummy is going to explode, her good mood can get worse in one minute, and everything bothers her when she needs to put something between her legs...=( And it is when pieces of meat come out of her pussy...=) And you know what? My tits grow at this time soo much! They become so firm… And sore. Why somebody cooked up the thing like periods?! grr! It is not fair! Why don’t guys have monthlies or something, huh? It is discrimination! Only because of that I would like to be a guy...:P Anyway, my mood is bad. Don’t come up to me!=)

I returned to my childhood today. It’s when you feel something magic coming up to you… When you believe in fairytales… When you are so innocent, so sweet... When you wait for something special and fairy at night… When you think that you are able to do everything in this life. You just believe all that... And you wait for a miracle... When you understand that your family is the most amazing thing in your life. When you are really happy that this night you are with your family… Well, I just decorated the New Year tree... And these feelings filled my mind and my heart...

I kind of jumped to the past because I haven’t been decorating the New Year tree for a long time. I did it last time when I was 10 or something like that…

Just wanted to call my mommy and say that I love her very much... I think this night is a very family holiday. Or I would like to be with a dear man at the holiday. Just to make a wish and cuddle...;-)
Actually, when I started to decorate the New Year tree with singles the whole romantism has gone..)Money money money...))

Christmas, presents, parties, Santa Claus, in Russia we have Snow Maiden. She always comes with Santa Claus.;-) Keeps him warm in frost... What are you thinking, naughty you?! She is his niece! Santa is old, Snow maiden is a young beautiful lady... She helps Santa take presents out from the bag.:P She also has a crown. And she wears a blue coat. And she has on white underwear with lace.. maybe...
My friends told me yesterday that there is no Santa and Snow Maiden in real life. =( They said it is a fairy tale for kids... So kids believe in fables and dream, and mommies know what their kids dream about. They said that I had wasted my time whispering in Santa's ear what I had wanted to get for Christmas coz my mommy's ear had overheard what I was saying... And they said my mommy put presents under the Christmas tree when I was sleeping or went out of room like their mommies did. And what...Was my mommy’s astonishment fake when she and I were surprised soo much seeing the presents for first time?!.....=( No wonder, Santa didn’t send me atomic weapon to murder my older sister coz she was a drag (ew!). Poor "Santa", coz my favorite words were "Santa is a BASTARD"=) But I believed in Santa anyway... And I don’t know why but they laughed so much at me... And they used to say: we love you sooo much, our baby girl, you always make us smile... Don’t you know what they talked about?... Now my heart is broken. No Santa with his niece, and my mommy told me fibs for a long time, and no more presents from "Santa"...My mommy gave me two presents: from her and from Santa!!!!!!! Oh nooooo! I am so disappointed..=(((((( Shhhh!!! No mommy near me… I am going to ask "Santa" about something... "Santa, can you make Santa real?

Hello!
Do you know what I did today? You will never guess what...:P I climbed a cave! It was a practice from my school. I have a subject called an instructor in tourism... The cave was soo narrow... I even thought about naughty things there... The Earth is a women, right? Caves are her pussy then... But the Earth has many pussies.. Who is the cock then?? Oh my god, don’t tell me I was the cock for the Earth today!!! If you go deeper and deeper inside a cave it is good for her… And for you too.;-) It even has water inside. :-))) Ok ok, you know now that I can’t think about normal things, about how beautiful the nature is around us... So look at my pictures then. I couldn’t take a picture of the cave...=( But I have pictures of where it was: snowdrift, trees, the Russian steppe... so romantic..;-)

It was very frosty and all the trees around there seemed to be covered with diamonds, it was very sunny too and everything was shining. It was really dreamy... Well, I left the steppe being in a great mood with clean breath and with a good grade.:-)

Have you heard about the apocalypse?
WhooHoo!
I love to swim! I will make vacuum inside myself and will not sink.=) I have always wanted to sink...but not because of water but because of love..=( Or are you gonna make a big ark and sail to me?? Hey, make a big one! My cat is fat, we will sink very fast… And I have many suitcases... And my bag with cosmetics is also too big... And my tits are heavy too...;-)
Sorry...just can’t be serious... I will try... So, the apocalypse... Well, when I was 10 or 12 my geography teacher told me very interesting stories. She was really really very smart (unlike me)..Well, I am not a teacher..=) When I was at her lessons, my mouth was always opened ;-) because she spoke about very interesting things... I still remember her :"Sooo kids, we will all die soon!!!!Grrrr!"... No I am just kidding..=)) She told us that there were pictures showing how our planet appeared... There were strange lines and we could see more developed civilizations than ours. So, once there was the apocalypse... And maybe not once, who knows… Well, it is very intimate topic. You choose what to believe on your own. Nobody knows exactly what was and what will be, right? Even if you have scientific cases... These questions are waiting for being answered while the civilization exists... We can choose how to live right now. And maybe we make the past and the future by choosing our life... Or maybe we even don’t have any choices… Maybe our life is predestination... Well, it will always puzzle me...
Anyway, sail to me, we are going to give birth to a new clan...;-)